02.01.10
Time to learn a new way.
So, this month my card is the Queen of Cups…pretty fitting, as I’m challenging myself to take off some of the armor I carry around every day and to soften- to really know myself in all my parts.
Softening is really hard for me. I tend to sit behind my nice little Fence of Sarcasm and Wit, in my castle of I’m Too Cool to Care, in the county of I’m Above All of That. The trouble is, none of that is true. I *do* care. All of these well-crafted pieces of my personality serve to keep me at a distance so I don’t get hurt by those around me, and really? These defenses aren’t serving me anymore. They’re certainly not helping me craft the life I want.
So, how to best go about letting some of this go…well, I first have to remember that I’m strong, and that I don’t need all of this clap-trap to keep me safe. I have to remember what I want to cultivate in the world, what sorts of people I want to draw to me, what kinds of experiences I want to weave into my life. I have suffered to learn, and now it is time to stop suffering to learn. It is time to learn in a new way.
